Where I'm at

So for a while I haven't posted anything but short stories. Not that I think any of my 6 or 7 followers mind but I figured I'll go back to the original intent of this blog this post. My relationship with God is much different than what it was a couple years ago when I started this blog. Not because I feel like I know Him better but mainly because I feel like something has been lost along the way. I'm still Christian but it seems like sometimes its a name and while I know that is not a good thing and I should strive to get closer to God...apathy seems to be infiltrating this part of my life.

"if you want to know where your heart is look where your mind goes when it wanders..."

Right now I think my mind wanders to many things but not to God. I'm not sure how to manually override my heart and to force myself to think about God without it being...well, forced...Just to give an example, I was walking today and thought of something sweet I could do for this girl I'm attracted to. Now, there's nothing wrong with thinking of something to make someone happy but I do wonder about myself when it'll be halfway through the day and I realize I just thought about God for the first time that day. I'm a work in progress and I hope the progress is good.