Valentine's Day

As a single person, today was still nice. I say this because I'm a little worried some of my friends (mostly girls) see being single (especially on Valentine's Day) as a bad thing. True, they are not dating their future husbands when they are not dating. But they aren't wasting their time on someone either. Maybe that's an oddity only a few people (myself included) have. I have to be able to see a potential relationship having a future before I enter it. Am I attracted to a lot of women at my college? Sure I go to a place where they basically frolic in 4 inch shorts in the winter. That's going to get any guy's attention (though such attention is not necessarily good after all one must think of what fish such bait will reel in). However, I rarely ask women out. Basically because I can't be with a lot of things...it's really odd. I never think about how "picky" I am until I start thinking about what I like in a woman. Don't worry such a list isn't about to develop, instead I'll just focus on a characteristic that I'm constantly attracted to though most of my friends are not. Confidence. Not in the "self employed" type way though that is cool. I mean the "I'll call you out in front of a group of people and won't back down from what I think is right" kind of confidence. Maybe a better word for part of it may be "conviction" There really isn't much of that in the world anymore. At least, I rarely see it. But when I do, like a moth to a flame...

Today, I watched "Law Abiding Citizen" with my roommates. Once we finished one of the roommates declared that the main character was a psycho since he killed a lot of people to "fix the system" and that as such, he was a horrible person...it was odd to see no one defend such a character in a way. Sure he killed but he was principled. I think that's what pushed my roommate from him (after all, over half the tv shows out there have main characters that kill for multiple reasons but we don't think all of them are evil do we?), the character was too extreme and was willing to risk too much to live for an ideal he had. Such conviction must be lunacy. I wish I could be so devoted to something, or someone. I would like to live such a way for God but saying "I would like to..." doesn't = "I will..." An ideal would be for people to see me as crazy for valuing something over my life. The approval of man almost guarantees the disapproval of God I'd think. After all, how convicted can a man with no enemies be?