My Unhealthy Passion

I want the world to work well. Not perfectly, I can't expect such things, but I do want it to work well. It won't do so on its own so I will have to force it to change. To do that, I need power. Lots of power. Shamelessness will be key. And so I am still trying to figure out the best course of action. Should I be a politician and strive to control the government? Should I be a powerful business man and sway the market to account for mercy and love through creating one of the most effective brands for products based on how it is made? Or should I be a priest and purify the Church and strengthen its relationships with other religions and thus spread tolerance through religion? I'm not sure what I can or should do but I need to change the world, this place is falling apart and we are all watching it from our tv sets.

How should I proceed to the top and why must I be at the top of the institution I pick? I heard a simple military concept that I liked a few days ago. It went basically like this: "We humans are weak and can't do much. But we can strive to take care of ourselves and those under our command. That's the least we can do. So if we want to help everyone, climb the ladder." Now don't think I actually think I will reach this goal. I will set it this high but the truth is that I really would have serious issues to climb high based on where I was born. I'm an American so the Church would never have me as a pope unless I was ridiculously great (which is doubtful). I'm a South Carolinian and our political power is quite limited. And I am financially conservative and business leaders are usually risk takers. I highly doubt I will reach this dream of mine. But it's a dream so I will strive for it.

This is my passion, this is my dream and this is a curse. Most people dream of a nice life of luxury, or a good family life, or possibly even to be famous. I dream to conquer my rivals who want the same power I desire and to crush the sins and inequity of men. But that's not going to happen because I am sinful. Even Jesus died before he made it big. Before death he was just some healer guy, after death he was the messiah of the world. Wouldn't it be grand if our deaths could give such joy? I doubt even Hitler's brought as much happiness as Christ's death. It's impossible to achieve my dream but it will be a fun challenge to try to reach it.