It occurred to me that the post I just wrote (the one below this one, you should probably read it before this one) was supposed to address something other than what it did. I guess it doesn't really matter since this is kind of a bunch of random thoughts in one group. But what concerned me about my previously mentioned friend was that being happy was one of her main goals/priorities in life.
Naturally, whenever I speak of others and their opinions, only uplifting things are stated and eventually I may finally venture forth to bring up some small issue that I have with their said opinion. That being said, her opinion sucks. You can't strive for happiness as a goal. It's too broad. Happiness (to me at least) is best achieved when you are pursuing something and are enjoying yourself in the process. To pursue happiness itself seems dangerous, especially since she didn't even mention God in her priorities...God is a mere dominant strategy for her. She believes in case that saves her but as for actually changing her actions, please, let's not be superstitious here.
And you know what I dislike the most about this whole priority question episode? I wonder how many people would actually read that question and stop to think compared to the masses that are no doubting just continuing the reading (instant gratification?). Anyway, I don't like that I believe those are her priorities...her life reflects them clearly. Drinking, sex, and having a lot of shallow silly friends (possibly I fall under this...), yep she's looking for happiness. And I wonder if it's such a high priority because she's having little luck finding it. Reasoning: If someone is usually happy and at least generally content with their life, would being happy be one of their top three priorities in life? I'd answer no, only those who aren't happy truly understand what a blessing it is.
So she's dying of thirst. What would you do for a cup of water in the middle of a desert after a day or two? She needs the happiness but doesn't realize that pursuing it directly is like chasing a mirage in the desert, it's so close...you can almost taste it and then it retreats back into the distance and you're left broken. Hopeless. I don't want this for her. She can be so much better, the potential is ridiculously amazing compared to her now (though, she is a good person now, just not really a happy/devout person). At least she's a humanitarian...I guess that's nice...
Ugh, do I do this a lot? Yesterday someone mentioned that they felt like they were a project in my eyes. The paragraph above doesn't give a much different story...is this a reoccurring theme in my friendships? I feel like sometimes I'm drawn to "projects" though I honestly don't view either of the previously mentioned people as projects. I wonder if it's so I can learn how to fix my sister...but I'm not God...I am an instrument of His though. What if He's using me to improve people? And by being with them, I introspectively improve myself, everyone wins.
Friendships are actually something I've been thinking a lot about recently. Why do I have them? Do I pick people that I think I'd be useful to or people that I think would be useful to me? Or is this the wrong way to view people in general...am I their tool or are they mine? If God's using us to improve each other, what's intrinsically valuable?
God is intrinsically valuable. This can be my given. So whatever God values is valuable for His opinion is the only one that matters, this is how we can all be instrumentally valuable. However, if God wills us to even throw our lives away, we should, yeah? For pleasing Him is the only thing that matters. So if He wishes us to fix people and in the process be purified and refined ourselves, then we should? And if God wants us to live lives that don't particularly make us happy, we should for God wills it? Of course, I've always seen happiness as an attitude thing. I could be happy leading people to their lethal injection if I had the right attitude about it. Though I don't suggest adopting such intense attitudes...ugh, I have a headache and as I close my eyes I can hear distinctly my sub conscience scream "Shut up!"
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