Hey, I haven't written in a while. That's not because I haven't had time but more of I've become quite the sloth since winter break began. Anyway, while I have been lazy and slack I realized something. Most people are spectators. And I am for the most part. When we come home and watch T.V., we are watching others fight battles or persuade lovers or win gambles that we have never tried. Why? Why aren't we out trying to change the world, to make a difference, why aren't we winning to take the risks in life?
Sure we all take small risks, but few people are brave enough for the real ones. Sure we can ask girls out, or fight a bully, or maybe even invest (dear heavens!) but what are these things? Why is it that most people are willing to watch others take risks? Why don't we take them ourselves?
I'm tired of it. I feel like any day I could snap and actually try to make a difference. And when I wonder why I don't you know what's running through my mind? Fear. Isn't that pathetic? Fear of failing and having all the spectators laugh, having all of them show their children the intelligence in just sitting around waiting and watching. Fear of telling myself that I should know my place and realize that there is no way one person can make a difference so why try. That's what we all tell ourselves isn't it? "Just one man can't do anything" It's bullshit. This world would be so fascinating if we could all stop watching T.V. and start living our lives. Imagine a world where the most interesting show is the news because all these people decided to actually do something. And better yet, while being the most interesting, it doesn't even get watched much. Only enough to where people know what else needs fixing.
That's the man I need to be. I'm tired of being a spectator.
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