Death is everywhere. The interesting thing though is that everyone is still alive. We are the walking dead. Animated only by some unseen strings, we puppets try to figure out why we are here and who we are putting a show on for. Ha, well some of us do. The others try to love their life. But trying to love in this fake plastic world with our fake plastic love, well...we break by the banality of it all.
So let's stop trying to cut the strings and finally see where they want to lead us. And let's love fully, but not the people that are our friends and family...that's meaningless since love in that since is somewhat a long term self interest (loving that which/who pleases you). That's it, isn't it? Lost in our fake world, strangled by the strings we ignore, they become nooses. And as we pull away from them, slowly all of our love and hope dies. We need to submit to the nooses, allow them to kill us. We need only to stop struggling to see that they are just strings...but enough of this extended metaphor, I'm sure the one or two people that decided to read this are already tired of it.
A toaster has value only in it's master's estimation of it/ how well it serves it's master. Are we much different in that respect? I think not. So let's try to follow our God without getting burnt. "What are we waiting for?" Don't just think I'm putting that at the end of the post to be clever because it is the title. Honestly, what are we waiting for? Any religious person should be pursuing their god completely if they have any faith at all. So what's holding us back?
Honey, I feel your pain. I dunno if I should be saying a word, 'cause you certainly have plenty to work through. But I hope you come to the place where you can appreciate your Creator without beating up yourself.
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Thank you. I'm trying to think of God as more of a father than a manufacturer but just because my brain thinks it doesn't mean my heart feels it. It's...I'm a working progress. But who isn't?
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