Yesterday I watched a movie with some friends called "Beware of Christians" In the movie there were various people interviewed about various topics. The one thing everyone shared in opinion though is "If there is a god, I'm sure He'll let me into heaven (or its equivalent)" It wasn't just the movie though, afterwords I thought on it and I do think most people think this. Hell, even atheists will tell me that they don't believe in God but if He exists and truly is merciful, He'll understand why they have doubts and accept them into heaven...isn't this ridiculous? Even atheists think they'll go to heaven (given that there is a god).
My mind was blown. It does make sense though, who would believe he/she was damned for eternity without God? Or a better question, who would want to believe that? I'm not exempt. I think I'll make the cut. Is that how we all secretly think? "Well, I'm certainly no saint but I'm good enough...yeah, He won't reject me." How pathetic. It's disgusting. Such thinking is not based on any form of reasoning other than "God is love" which if that's all we're going off of then everyone will be in heaven.
So I decided to force myself to acknowledge that I am, not possibly or could but AM, going to hell no matter how great of a person I am. I am destined for hell. Then I tried to stop there and just let it soak in a little. Afterwords, the thought "though God may save me from this if He so chooses" was allowed. This is how I think we should view the situation. We have no claim to heaven. God is not obligated to save us. We can strive to live our lives for Him but that doesn't mean He owes us anything (just as a man that follows the law his entire life doesn't deserve a reward). As creations, we are obligated to follow the ways God wishes us to live our lives. That doesn't mean I do it. After all, that's why I deserve hell. As creations, the will of our creator trumps our own. He gave us life/existence so if He wants us to be firemen but we want to be cops...well then it would be a sin to be a police officer.
Again, I don't claim to live up to the standard of pursuing His will over my own all the time. Ha, or even most of the time...or half of the time. But don't let that reassure you, I've accepted I deserve hell. I'm only trying to do what He wills because it is right, whether I get a reward or not has nothing to do with it. Which makes following Him better I think...not caring if He saves us, just knowing our place.
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